never say goodbye when you still want to try

 

what makes me headache??
that is few points, but is it true?
1. when i hungry, i will headache. The hungry doesnt mean very very hungry, is juz a little bit feel hungry and it will make me feel headache. this headache wont effect me, coz is like glucose level not enough.
2. when i over sleep, i will headache. wat a stupid head, ppl wish to sleep more, and i cant even sleep more than 8 hours. if i do, then i get headache. this kind of headache i dunno how to describe. but stil dont like it at all.
3. stress! this is the things that i dont admit it. but seriously, stress or pressure it comes so secretly. i have no idea when it comes and goes.when i think i am not stress, but actually i do. ( i think this is the thing cause me headache all the way)
4. weather. hot weather, no need to say for sure it makes me headache...
5. (not reli sure) facing laptop too much..

wonder, this kind of things really happen on me?why i keep on get headache?!
wonder, not only me get stress wor...
weird!or mayb i memang got problem...
hahahha...
anyway, i know what will cause me headache, and i try to overcome it...
yea....

at last, training finished lo....
happy?sad?this is wat ppl always ask...
actually, i am happy for get away from her...
she never let me feel better for this two weeks...
maybe i did smtg hurt her and make her misunderstood..
but, i don care anymore, i no longer at there and i tired to get knows what she think on me...
she makes me pissed off, she makes me feel upset...
everyday i have no idea what is going on in her mind, and i dunno how to face her...
so fake!i knows i give her bad impression this two weeks, and yet she stil can pretend ntg happen and having lunch with me everyday...i really ntg to say..
but this all makes me not comfortable with all and last i decide not having lunch with her..
and yet, the next day she is juz ignore me and pretending i am transparent...
i feel so sick about it, and i happy tat i no longer the sin sin tat care so much with the friendship...
i no longer care her..even the whole day we din talk at all..even when she sick and take leave, i not even know it and i didnt ask her at all...
where is my kind heart goes???? maybe i had learn it tat this is not worth it for me to spend time on her..
i am glad, at last i know wat kind of gal she is...
it sound stupid for trust on her 8 weeks....but yet i realize at the end...

ashley,
u treat me in this way, i wil treat u back wat u want...
i knows u cant stand the loneliness and i dare to say u care bout friends...
too bad, since i know ur true personality, is hard for me to be nice to u anymore....

i am sad, coz i going miss Ray Goh, my sifu!!teach me a lot of things..
such a nice guy...love him so much!
even he likes to bully me, i still like it...
thanks for teaching me such many things tat i dunno...
waihwa, thx for telling me about ashley thingy...thx for teaching me icp....hahahha...
hope never make big mistake to trouble u...hahahah...
daniel, the small gas guy....stil i glad to kno u...even ur temper is bad!but is stil ok la..
mayb i will complaint u...but stil u treat me quite nice bah...hahahaha....
another reason for sad, i am jobless!!!!
T.T

對於朋友之間的見面，我對你產生了恐懼，
雖然只是純粹的朋友關係，卻不曉得別人會不會看得那麽複雜，
也不曉得，是否會帶來不必要的麻煩，
就這樣，表面上看是朋友，但是事實上是不可以見面的朋友，
感覺上好像很矛盾，
但是，算了吧！免得帶來不必要的麻煩，
盡管如此，我們也不如從前，
我們也失去了那份互相信任，互相了解的感覺了，
我們已經不懂對方過招怎樣的生活，
也更加不曉得，最近的你我過的好嗎？
雖然，每一天都挂在msn上，
但你我並無交談，
我不願過問你的一點一滴，也不願知道關於你的一切，
這樣的表面朋友，是你想要的吧！
感激，我做到了。
發現，友情並非永久的，時間，人，地點都是考驗了友情，
雖然很多時候，不管怎樣友情的問題是在於自己想要持續還是放棄，
但是，某些問題不是可以解決的，心結，誤會，偏見是很難克服的。

i am over d kah??let see what is going on at my side...
she wan gossip girl and i donwan give her and asking(mayb is forcing) her to finish plot all the graph only give the episode for her..
she said after watching, sure she will watch, in my mind, is setting that she wont coz she will chatting in msn without doing anything...
so i refuse to give her and she said she hate me...(i clearly remember she said that)...i reply her then hate lo...
ok...kai weng is here while i said those things...
maybe she get terganggu or terasa coz in front of kai weng i said so...
make her so no face, never think of her feeling while saying that...
i think she more hate me at that time..

for me.......
she telling me her data got a bit problem...
ok, then find a way to solve it as soon as possible...is not as easy as u think...
forcing her to plot those thing coz not much time left...
maybe is over her limit to get pressure on me...
treat her such strict which is killing her...
so seems to be my fault coz she donwan to face me and chose to runaway..
even donwan to stay at home..
am i the one should left the house??so that is more comfort to her to do her things if she want to settle it..
since is easy to get something at home compare at outside..
someone will read this i think, if yes...juz inform her that if she wish i not at home, then juz let me know...

(maybe u will think wah..so nice ar me...so wei da ar...left the house to make her feel better...i don care what u think and whoever thinking, this is juz a very true of myself...if wanna think another way juz go ahead...i juz bear with it..all i hope is she can finish up her things and at least pass up one time)

過去了，本想並不重要了， 但是不曉得爲何他會告訴我。
雖然自己清楚的知道，曾經他對我的感覺是如此的真，也知道那段時間我們都很好，很開心，
就那麽短短的幾個月，對我的好， 我真的很感激，
過後的那幾個月，我們好像陌生人，
他的態度如此大的轉變，這樣的轉變無疑在我心裏造成很多的疑問，
我想問，但我沒有哪個勇氣，
我想知道，但我又害怕事實，
儅有那麽一天我真的鼓起勇氣想知道事情的真相的時候，他選擇了逃避，
我很無奈，我完全不懂爲什麽，
直到最近，原來有人在我跟他的背後說了閒話，
說了什麽呢？我不懂也不知道，
怎麽他就那麽在意呢？怎麽他就不能告訴我呢？
爲什麽讓我一個人傻傻的懊惱呢？
依然，哪些問題困擾著我，
但是過去了，我們不如以前那麽好了，
我卻不知道應該怎樣發文問題了，
雖然，我依然很想知道事情的真相，
他都不在這裡了，我還想怎樣呢？